My Nutrisystem Journey

                                                                                                              🖤   Get well soon Tommy ! #teamrivs #RageOn 🖤 "Self awareness gives you the capacity  to learn from your mistakes as well as  your successes. It enables you to keep  growing."  ~Lawrence Bossidy~                           It's Day 575 of Nutrisystem. I don't know why self awareness came to mind this morning. It's not really something I've ever thought about, so I must have heard or read the term somewhere and it stuck in my subconscious. I think I'm more self aware than I've ever been. Have I learned from my mista...

                                                                                                              🖤   Get well soon Tommy ! #teamrivs #RageOn 🖤 "Your life is a result of the choices you  make. If you don't like your life, it is  time to start making better choices."                           It's Day 574 of Nutrisystem. It took me a long time to accept the fact that my life was the result of choices I made. For years I blamed everyone but myself. I was the long suffering "victim". The whole world was against me. Nothing was my fault. In reality I just gave up on my life and on myself. The road back seemed too long and t...

                                                                                                                        🖤   Get well soon Tommy ! #teamrivs #RageOn 🖤 "And suddenly you just know it's time to  start something new and trust the magic of  beginnings."                          It's Day 573 of Nutrisystem. It took me a long time to find inspiration today. Some days my mind is just quiet and that's actually a good thing. I feel like it's an indication that life is becoming more peaceful. I started something new 573 days ago. I don't really know what "clicked" to make it happen. Sure, those horrifying p...

                                                                                                                      Get well soon Tommy ! #teamrivs #RageOn 🖤 "At the end of the night, before you close  your eyes, be content with what you've  done and be proud of who you are."                          It's Day 572 of Nutrisystem. As time goes on I'm seeing a little more consistency with my fitness routine and that is something I think about almost every night. It feels good to end the day knowing I've accomplished all of my goals. Before I started Nutrisystem my days usually ended with regret. Every night I'd say I wasn't...

                                                                                                              🖤   Get well soon Tommy ! #teamrivs #RageOn 🖤 "Strength has nothing to do with  external performance. It has everything  to do with internal belief."   ~Dolvett Quince~                          It's Day 571 of Nutrisystem. Strength was on my mind for a lot of reasons today so this quote was perfect for the day. You can have all the physical strength in the world but if you don't believe in yourself you'll never reach your full potential. I still struggle with the internal beliefs. Will I be able to reach my goal weight ? Wi...

                                                                                                                🖤   Get well soon Tommy ! #teamrivs #RageOn 🖤 "Never assume that you're stuck with  the way things are. Life changes every  single moment and so can you."                           It's Day 570 of Nutrisystem. I felt stuck for many years and in fact, I was stuck. Stuck in a situation I had allowed to happen. A situation I felt powerless to change. I had dug a hole so deep, one I felt I could never climb out of. Instead of putting my energy towards changing that I turned to food. The easy way out. I never felt more al...

                                                                                                                🖤   Get well soon Tommy ! #teamrivs #rageon 🖤 "Our lives may look nothing alike on the  surface but we share one undeniable  truth. We are flawed beings capable of  change. We are people who believe in  the promise of tomorrow even after  knowing the darkness of yesterday."                           It's Day 569 of Nutrisystem. Yesterday was a dark day but today is a new one. Today is the day to accept the things I cannot control and to focus on those I can. I can pray for Tommy to win this battle and ...

                                                                                            Get Well Soon Tommy ! #teamrivs #rageon   🖤 "We must understand that sadness is an  ocean, and sometimes we drown, while  other days we are forced to swim."  ~R.M. Drake~                          It's Day 568 of Nutrisystem. Today I forced myself to swim in an endless ocean of sadness, because drowning wasn't an option. News came of a diagnosis for Tommy Rivs. Primary Pulmonary NK T-Cell Lymphoma. Just like Tommy it is extraordinarily rare because it presented in his lungs. It is also aggressive. The prognosis is very poor but the plan was to start high dose chemo today. Cancer strikes ...

                                                                                                                               🖤   Get well soon Tommy ! #teamrivs🖤 Self-Love vs Narcissism   Self-love: being content with the work- in-progress that you are. Not seeking the  approval of others. Being yourself.  Comparing yourself only to who you  were in the past and not to others. Not  thinking you are better than anyone  else.  Narcissism: none of the above."  ~ Zero Dean ~                          It's Day 567 of Nutrisystem. I lived with a narcissist for years a...

                                                                                                                              🖤   Get well soon Tommy ! #teamrivs 🖤 "Life is a mixture of sunshine and rain,  teardrops and laughter, pleasure and  pain. Just remember, there was never a  cloud that the sun couldn't shine  through."                          It's Day 566 of Nutrisystem. This was the perfect sentiment for a cloudy dreary day. I didn't spend any time reflecting on my own situation today because I had other things weighing on my mind. iFit trainer Tommy Rivs is not doing wel...