The Journey Back: Day 12

 

“The only person you should try 

to be better than, is the person 

you were yesterday."

This is totally me. I've never aspired to be better than anyone else nor have I ever felt I was better than anyone else. I was just me and I still feel that way. I might weigh less but I'm still the same person. I have wanted to be (or not be) like someone else at different points in my life, but it was never for the purpose of being better than anyone. Most of the time the comparisons I made had to do with weight. It's unfortunate that I never took the initiative to do what was necessary to be like that person with the figure I admired. It's kind of like wishing I'd win the lottery but I never bought a ticket ! So today's quote is good advice. I don't compete against others and my focus is on making each day a little better than the previous one. I drew on that philosophy a lot over the past 3 years, especially when the scale wasn't moving. I had to take it one day at a time and ask myself if I did my best. If the answer was yes, great. If it was no, it gave me something to focus on improving. I've said it before - you can't change a lifetime of bad habits overnight. I didn't get to 304 pounds overnight and getting to 150 wasn't going to happen overnight either. Staying at 150 or so is the struggle now. It sure seems like you gain weight a lot faster than you lose it ! Learning that lesson first hand has been eye opening and I think it will help me in the long run. When the holidays roll around again I'll think back to the past few weeks and the way I've felt and maybe, just maybe I'll do things a little differently.

Today is Day 1100 of Nutrisystem. 168 days since I reached my goal weight. I maintained it for a while but as you know I've gained some weight and I'm working to get it back off and it's Day 12 of that effort. I'm pleased with the progress I'm making and have no doubt I'll settle back in at my goal weight soon.

Breakfast was 150 calorie pancakes with sugar free syrup and an 80 calorie yogurt. Morning snack was a 120 calorie vanilla shake with peanut butter powder. Lunch was a 220 calorie pepperoni pizza melt with a chef salad. Afternoon snack was 80 calorie cottage cheese and 90 calorie oatmeal cookies. Dinner was a 250 calorie meatloaf sandwich with roasted veggies. Evening snack was a 140 calorie chocolate cupcake. Total calories for the day are 1130 and I got 80 ounces of water in.

I spent about 62 minutes on the treadmill today. I thought about squeezing a third workout in but it's Friday night and honestly, I'm tired. I got over 11,300 steps according to Fitbit so I'm happy with that. 

We had snow on and off all day so I'm glad I didn't have to go anywhere ! It's supposed to move on by morning so it shouldn't interfere with my casino outing ! Temps are headed to single digits tonight and the high for tomorrow is only in the 20's .. brrrr ! My heating system remains stable but I've probably looked in the basement 5 times today, went down there once and checked the registers a few times too. It's going to take me some time to stop worrying about the heat but I'm hopeful they fixed the problem and it'll be smooth sailing for the remainder of the winter. On a positive note, I ended the work week at 5:25 pm feeling like I accomplished a lot over the past 5 days ! I tackled a few old issues that I'd been avoiding, along with quite a few complicated issues that took time to untangle. Next week the plan is to end the work day at 5 pm sharp unless I'm on a roll and close to finishing up something. It's important for me to get the work vs. life balance back to a more reasonable split. My stress level has definitely decreased and I'm sleeping better already ! On that note I'm heading for a hot shower and some tv in bed.