The Journey Back: Day 30

 “Failure is simply the opportunity

to begin again, this time 

more intelligently."

~ Henry Ford ~

I talk about failure a lot because I feel like my life has been full of it. The reality is I feel that way because I spend more time obsessing on the failures, instead of being proud of the successes. I know I'm not alone in that. Saying you lost over 150 pounds makes gaining 10-15 not so bad. Make no mistake - I'm not happy about the gain because I swore I'd never do that. I've learned a lot about myself over the past 3 years and there is still more to be discovered and plenty to be worked on ! I really haven't done that bad. I have a great job that is now 100% work from home, I own my own home, I addressed my credit card debt, my weight & my physical fitness. What more can you ask for ? I can't think of a thing I "need" right now !

Today is Day 1118 of Nutrisystem. 186 days since I reached my goal weight. I maintained it for a while but as you know I've gained some weight and I'm working to get it back off and it's Day 30 of that effort. I'm pleased with the progress I'm making and have no doubt I'll settle back in at my goal weight soon. Right now I'm not focusing on the number on the scale. Once I return from vacation I will check the number and work from there.

Breakfast was pancakes with sugar free syrup and a yogurt. Morning snack was a vanilla shake with peanut butter powder. Lunch was a chef salad and I never got around to a lunch entree or an afternoon snack. Work was super busy so I put all my focus on that and didn't even think about food ! Dinner was roasted turkey medallions with roasted veggies. Evening snack was a lemon zest cake.

This past weekend was my normal casino outing with mom on Saturday. I had some luck at the slots and that is going right to my vacation fund ! We had dinner at Upstate Tavern at Turning Stone casino. I planned to go shopping on Sunday but the weather had other ideas. It was snowy pretty much all day so I stayed home. I may venture out after work one day this week because I need to buy a few things for my trip and I don't want to leave it all for this weekend. So I spent Sunday starting my packing and making a list of what I need to buy. Yesterday was a normal work day but the evening got away from me so I didn't feel like writing.

I spent about 64 minutes on the treadmill yesterday, so that was a good start to the week ! Sunday I had zero ambition and didn't even get dressed. The problem there was I woke at before 5 am and couldn't go back to sleep. As a result I was tired all day. I thought about taking a nap but I knew that would lead to not being able to sleep Sunday night. So in the end I just did what I could. Today I pushed myself hard during my 35 minute lunchtime workout - harder than I've pushed myself in a long time. Not even 10% incline at 3.4 mph could stop me ! So it's clearly time to start pushing myself to get back to my old pace. After work I put in another 30 minutes so I feel good about that. 

Winter seems to have settled in ! We had snow Sunday, snow yesterday and more snow today, with more coming overnight ! I may not want to come back from Florida ! On that note, I'm heading for bed !