Day 62 (AG): Life Changes





It's day 62 AG (after goal) and day 994 of Nutrisystem. Life has changed and I've come to the realization that it's never going to go back to "normal". I've been incredibly busy with work and I gave up trying to write this blog every day. I'm still working long hours but the good news is I'm catching on to the new work and it gets a little easier each day. I still feel like I have a long way to go but I'm making forward progress and that is all that matters. On a personal level things are happening around me but my life remains the same. I work until 9 most nights but tonight I was wiped out by 8 pm and gave up, so I decided to check in here. Weekends are spent with my mom. Last Saturday we did our usual Turning Stone Casino run and Sunday we both wanted to be out of the house so we did some grocery shopping, visited Cracker Barrel again and hit up Point Place Casino too ! All in all it was a fun weekend and a break that I really needed !


I've been sticking to the Nutrisystem plan as much as possible but exercise has been sporadic. The plan is to resume my normal schedule in October. I don't plan on working 13 hours a day for the rest of my life. For one, my employer doesn't expect it and for another, I just can't do it. I allowed the balance to tilt with the understanding that it would be temporary and it's been hugely beneficial on a professional level. So no regrets ! My weight has remained stable so I'm not resorting to stress eating. Have I been tempted ? Yes. Absolutely. A lot. Things I can't mention here have been happening around me and although they do not directly impact my own life they impact my heart and soul. The pain people I care about feel hurts me too, so the urge to stress eat has been in full swing because of both the personal and the professional challenges. Things are looking up on both fronts so I am cautiously optimistic for better times ahead ! Still, I know life will never be "normal" again. After all, what exactly is "normal" ?


Until recently I didn't really think about the sentiment in the graphic at the top of this post. It takes a life and death battle to smack you in the face. You know that strong person that you think is invincible ? Well, turns out they're just as fragile as you are and they could be gone in the blink of an eye. Over the past couple of weeks I've often felt like I was in a bad dream that I couldn't wake up from. I think a lot of us have felt that way for the past 16 months, so I know I'm not alone in that. Is this our new normal ? I really, really hope it isn't. Can I whine a little here ? I spent so many years fat and unhappy ... and the minute that changed so did the world. I know that's petty and immature and maybe a little selfish considering how many people have lost their lives or their livelihood ... but I can't help it. I worked so hard and now here we are in this never ending nightmare. I'm still grateful for everything I have and for where I am in life, but I had hoped the remaining years of my life would turn out better. I feel like it's not going to happen and that makes me sad. Anyhow .. definitely forgive often and love with all your heart.  




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