Day 51 (AG): Questions
It's day 51 AG (after goal) and day 983 of Nutrisystem. The last couple of years have been mostly about turning my own life around and making it better. At times I worried about becoming self-absorbed because taking care of my own needs had never been a priority, so it was a new feeling. I worried that self-care would turn into me me me and only me all the time. I knew I had to strike a balance but how ? I haven't yet figured that out, as evidenced by my inability to say no to myself sometimes. It's always food that gets me in trouble. It's not an everyday thing but it happens more often than I'm comfortable with. Yesterday I put a little more effort into it. My day started off doing a few things that dovetail with today's quote. I was doing things for a couple of people close to me, things I won't share here to maintain their privacy. I only mention it because it felt good to feel needed and to be able to give back in a small way. I have been blessed in so many ways over the past couple of years, so it's only right that I practice a little "do unto others". I did the same today, bringing a few groceries to someone who couldn't get out to get them. It's nothing compared to the good works many others do, but it's a step in the right direction.
Since it's the weekend my meals haven't been regular or Nutrisystem compliant, so I don't document that anymore. That boring litany will be back tomorrow !
After my morning errands yesterday I picked up mom and we had lunch at Cracker Barrel. We both had chicken & dumplings and wow .. what a fantastic meal ! I paired mine with mashed potatoes and fresh fruit and put the fork down when I was full. The leftovers came home with me and were today's lunch ! After lunch we headed to Point Place Casino for some fun at the slots. We came home losers but we had a nice meal before we left. I had a delicious veggie burger with a side salad. I also had a few of mom's fries ! There were no sweetened coffee drinks (though they were available), nor did I visit the bakery for any sweet treats. This is a win for me ! Today was grocery shopping so after a quick breakfast (waffles with sugar free syrup) I was out the door to Wegman's and Walmart. I also stopped to get gas for my car. After dropping off the things I bought for another I was back home by 1:30 or so.
I had wanted to wash my car today but our gloomy overcast day turned into rain not long after I got home. Motivation to exercise was in short supply so I decided to focus on a few other tasks that needed to be done to get the house ship shape for the week ahead. The temptation to just vegetate in front of the tv was strong ! Instead I worked on all those little things around the house that I never seemed to have time for. The list of them is never-ending but I crossed a few off the list ! I'm glad I spent time organizing my pantry recently because my winter stock-up is in full swing and the shelves are filling up ! If another period of panic buying comes along I won't have to worry. Hopefully more people are thinking ahead and gradually stocking up a bit more than usual, just in case. I still remember the eerie feeling of going to Wegman's and Walmart on March 15, 2020 - the day before our "2 week pause" that turned into months and months. I'll be honest - at the time I NEVER expected this to still be going on ! I thought a lot of it was media hype and just plain BS so I really didn't take it that seriously. Store shelves have returned to normal though there still seems to be issues obtaining canned cat food. Every time I order from Amazon it goes out of stock the minute my order ships and then is only available from 3rd party sellers who double the price ! Walmart never has the food I'm looking for and most of the time the shelves are bare. Empty store shelves were a fixture for quite a long time starting back in March 2020 but I always had what I needed thanks to my tendency to stock up on frequently used items. With the cat food, I am constantly ordering it to keep ahead of the shortages. I never worried about having enough for myself - it's always been about ensuring my cats have their favorite food ! That being said, Nutrisystem was also a godsend during that time. Their deliveries never faltered so I never had to worry about what I was going to eat. I don't know what I'd have done if they had to shut down their deliveries. It's hard to accept that here we are over 18 months later still dealing with this virus. I don't believe it's ever going to go away, since we've never been able to eradicate the flu or common cold. You can vaccinate the entire world but viruses continue to mutate and we will always be one step behind. So ... you have to wonder what our future is going to look like. At what point do you toss the masks and the social distancing rules and just let people live their lives as they see fit ? It's a tough question with no easy answers.
Well, vacation is pretty much over and I truly enjoyed the time off. It was a much needed break ! I'm planning on scaling back the extra hours I've been putting in at work because it's not sustainable and it was always my intention that it would be temporary. The balance of work/home life is off kilter so I'll be working on striking a better balance in the weeks ahead. I plan to hit the ground running first thing tomorrow and hope to get a lot done !
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