Day 931: Circles
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Today is day 931 of Nutrisystem. It's also Day 3 of my 3 day Beachbody detox. I look at this as a mini journey in my quest to reach my goal weight. Just another circle in this crazy thing we call life. I'm looking forward to shifting my focus to maintaining the weight loss, instead of worrying about continuing to lose. I will close the circle on weight loss and open a new one to maintain. Some days I wonder what I will do with my life when the quest to "lose weight" is over. The majority of the past 930 days has been all about losing weight and I'm approaching the end of this journey with some anxiety and a little sadness. Yes, I want to be done and yes, I want to move on to maintenance but I don't yet trust myself. So that is the source of my anxiety. I also still think about all the times over the years that life started going good and then the bottom fell out. It's hard to shake that feeling of dread when everything is going well. I'm out of debt .. I'm fit .. I've lost the weight .. my job feels more secure .. yet I still worry. I'm not sure that will ever change.
Breakfast was a 160 calorie cafe latte Shakeology protein shake. I completely forgot about the fruit I was supposed to eat ! Morning snack was a 60 calorie fiber drink. Lunch was a 200 calorie "Vanilla Fresh" shake with a serving of fruit and a chef salad. Afternoon snack was some roasted veggies. Dinner was another 200 calorie "Vanilla Fresh" shake and more veggies. Total calories are 620 plus the fruit and veggies. Hard to guesstimate those calories. I also drank a ton of water.
I plan to return to the treadmill tomorrow. I did feel more energetic today but my knee still concerns me.
Thoughts on the detox, day 3. Shakes are still awful and if asked, I would never recommend buying them. I had a hard time getting to sleep last night. Being hungry might have had something to do with that but I'm more inclined to blame it on my mind not letting go of work. I was wide awake at 4:45 am and all I could think about was all the work I wanted to get done today. I thought about getting up and starting early but our systems are not up at that hour ! I did finally go back to sleep at some point. As I mentioned yesterday, I stuck pretty closely to the plan with a couple of exceptions: I drank all the coffee I wanted and used my sugar free flavorings. I also used fat free dressing on my salad and didn't have the "healthy fat" they recommended. I'm proud to say I did not give in to temptation and "cheat" ! I might have eyed the protein bars, the sugar free jello, the cottage cheese ... but I didn't have any of it. My "dessert" the past 2 nights has been my gummy vitamins and my calcium chew .. lol ! This morning I could feel a difference when I put on a fresh set of leggings - they were definitely a bit looser and my stomach feels a bit flatter. Did I lose those 2 pounds ? We'll see tomorrow ! All that being said, if I decide I need a bit of a "refresh" again I will model it after Nutrisystem's "fresh start" week. I believe in trying new things so I don't regret the detox at all. I also feel like it's going to give me the result I was looking for - so who am I to complain ? I'll be honest though - I can't wait for breakfast tomorrow ! Will it be waffles ? pancakes ? a cherry or cinnamon roll ? Maybe all 4 .. lol ! I have to be honest - I'm tired of shakes and veggies. Even though I was starving the veggies I had for dinner were not appealing. I pretty much forced myself to eat them. I was like that little kid sitting at the table refusing to eat their broccoli. My only hope for these 3 days was to lose 2 pounds and put more distance between myself and all those yummy carbs and sugars that were sneaking back into my life. I'll be shocked if I didn't lose the 2 pounds and I definitely feel like the carb/sugar cravings are back under control. The key is to keep it that way, which is something I haven't done a good job with lately. The Nutrisystem plan really does give you enough to eat every day so I can't blame my digressions on them. I was rarely truly hungry. I've known for years that the more carbs/sugar I eat, the hungrier I get, so this is nothing new. If I can get through 3 days like this detox, then the Nutrisystem plan should be a piece of cake. It really is .. I just got overconfident and self-indulgent and created my own frustration.
I had a hugely productive work day so I'm happy about that ! I did put in some extra time past 5 to get a few extra things done. After today I'll be back to my normal schedule so work will be done at 5 pm unless it's a dire emergency. Weather was chilly today and I was so tempted to turn on the heat this morning ! I did work on the front porch all day but I'm back in my winter hoodie. The temp only made it to the low 70's and tomorrow looks to be about the same. Low for tonight is 57 - not exactly what you expect in late July ! I will be sure to close all the windows tonight since I froze last night ! On that note it's about time for a shower and bed. I'm glad to be closing the book on the detox and getting back to "normal". I've missed the Nutrisystem food and I've missed my treadmill workouts !
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