Day 901: The Vision
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Today is day 901 of Nutrisystem. Seeing that number automatically sent my mind ahead to day 1000 and the fact that I've been at this for over 2 years. At first I was upset about that, because I was thinking I didn't expect it to take this long. However, when I really thought about it and was honest with myself I realized that I started this journey with zero expectations. I did want to be at my goal weight by January 4, 2021 but back in the beginning I didn't dare to dream. In all honestly I expected to be a complete failure. Why would you expect success when you had always felt like a failure ? I was at a point in my life where it was easier not to get my hopes up because then there would be no disappointment. I've had a lot of that in my life (who hasn't ?!?!) and at that point I had pretty much given up. I didn't have any faith in myself. There was no confidence in my ability to stick to a diet or exercise plan. I never had before, so why would this be any different ? Well, the good news is this IS different ! I did lose the weight and I'm more fit than I've ever been. Yes, I still want to lose a couple more pounds (who doesn't !?!?) but I feel like I'm there already. When I count the days now it's more like just counting the days of my new life. My life changed forever on Day 1 of this journey. Today I look at my life in 2 sections: before Nutrisystem and after Nutrisystem. Life in general started to change after the fire but personal growth didn't really start to happen until the weight started coming off. The quote says trust the process, but you also have to trust yourself and that was a big ask. Again I thought "why would this be any different". I had no confidence in my ability to succeed. Swerve around the obstacles. In the beginning every obstacle seemed like a mountain I could not scale and that's where the excuses came into play. Over time the obstacles were fewer and didn't seem so impossible. I started to swerve around them ! As a result fewer excuses were needed, though I am still working on that because excuses still sometimes come too easily. Throughout the journey I've never lost sight of my "why". I was tired of being fat. I was tired of the way I felt physically and mentally. I was tired of the way I looked. After all these years I've finally achieved something that I'm proud of. Even if I never get to 150 pounds I will still be proud of what I've accomplished.
Breakfast was a 150 calorie pancakes with sugar free syrup and an 80 calorie Light & Fit salted caramel yogurt. Morning snack was a 120 calorie chocolate shake with peanut butter powder. Lunch was a 220 calorie pepperoni pizza melt with a chef salad. Afternoon snack was 1/2 cup cottage cheese (80 calories) and 2 Alyssa's oatmeal cookies (90 calories). Dinner was a 260 calorie mushroom bolognese with roasted veggies. This was a new entree and although it was good it was a lot of calories for what you got. Basically a few strands of spaghetti with sauce, cheese & mushrooms. Evening snack was a 140 lemon zest cake. Total calories for the day are 1140 and I got 80 ounces of water in.
First workout of the day was in Tanzania with iFit trainer Knox Robinson. Second was Austria with iFit trainer Evan Dollard and last was New Zealand with iFit trainer Zac Marion. I logged 110 minutes, 6.3 miles and 754 calories. Apparently my 3 day break did me some good ! I also spent some time on the Total Gym. Fitbit says I did over 16,000 steps.
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