Day 898 / 899 / 900: Another Week Begins
Today is day 900 of Nutrisystem and this is the perfect quote after a lazy weekend. The weekend seems to be my undoing more often than not. I do great Monday to Friday (most of the time) but then stumble on the weekend. There are those who would say I'm expecting too much from myself, and they may be right, but I know myself all too well. Lack of discipline was my undoing for years and I'm determined not to go back to that. It's about striking a balance and I'm not quite there yet. My biggest fear is going back to my old eating habits and not exercising, so every time I hit a rough patch I tend to imagine the worst. Sunday was hard because it was Father's Day and my dad has been gone since 2012, but that's no reason not to exercise. I probably would have felt better if I did get on the treadmill but it was easier to sit around and feel sorry for myself. Had I known my sister was ill I'd have offered to bring her dinner or something, though I'm sure my wonderful brother in law was right there to take care of everything. Both of my sisters married great guys and my brother has an awesome wife, so they are all lucky in that respect ! I probably worry way too much about my exercise and diet but after being fat for so many years I'm enjoying not being fat. I have to keep reminding myself that slipping back into old habits will lead to putting the weight back on. The weight is gone for now but it will always be lurking in the shadows, ready to take advantage of my weaknesses.
I haven't been on the treadmill since Friday. I was out Saturday, I was lazy on Sunday and today I was out for the dentist and then a storm rolled in and my internet connection rolled out ! Saturday is my usual day out with my mom and I'm ok with not exercising that day. This week I didn't grocery shop on Saturday so I had to do it Sunday. Cue the excuses .. I just didn't have the energy or ambition to get on the treadmill. Then today rolls around and I forgot I had a dentist appointment so there was no lunch time workout. Then at 5 pm a thunderstorm rolled in and my internet was out for several hours. Tomorrow should be a "normal" day but Wednesday my mom has a doctor's appointment so I will likely be taking the day off to take her to that, unless my sister is feeling better. So that will bring me to Thursday. I'm not complaining - I will do whatever I can to help out my mom and spending Wednesday with her will be a bonus ! This is more about frustration with myself. I could and should have worked out on Saturday and Sunday. I also could have worked out today - I was actually awake at 5 am and got up around 6, so I had plenty of time before work ! This is actually yet another good lesson about procrastination for me ... but will I take the lesson and actually do anything with it ? That is the million dollar question ! It's not all bad. I did some things around the house Sunday and I spent some time on the Total Gym. After dinner tonight I cleaned the kitchen, washed all the plasticware that had accumulated in the sink and loaded and ran the dishwasher. I also made some sugar free jello so I'll have something different for a "treat". I reset my router around 7:30 pm and the internet was back on but by then it was too late to even consider the treadmill. So here I am.
I'm not going to bother documenting everything I ate the past couple of days. Saturday mom and I went to Turning Stone Casino and had dinner at Emerald's. I had a rare treat - a bacon cheeseburger and fries. The fries were amazing but I have to say, I prefer the veggie burger at Upstate Tavern or Point Place !! I honestly did not enjoy the burger as much as I expected to. I had my usual caramel macchiato coffee and a cranberry orange scone too. I also left there with an extra $50 so it was a good day at the slots ! Sunday I was home so I followed the Nutrisystem plan. I managed to get out of the grocery store without too many "bad" things. I was so tempted by the strawberry shortcake at Wegman's but I settled for a package of baking powder biscuits to satisfy my carb cravings. Imagine my shock when I checked the nutrition label and found each one is 220 calories ! I won't be buying them again. I also bought some fresh cherries since they're in season and the price had dropped to $4.99 a pound. I have a little handful in the afternoon.
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