Say 720: Decide To Be Happy
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Today is day 720 of Nutrisystem. I'm not particularly religious but I could listen to Joyce Meyer all day long. I've had a rough week but I'm over the cookie incident and in all honesty I'm looking forward to getting back to "normal" once the holidays are over. Tomorrow will be spent with my brother and his new wife and Christmas will be spent with my entire family. Saturday I will likely clean the house and do laundry since I'll be out Sunday too for my celebration dinner. Monday December 28 I will buckle back down and refocus on reaching my goal weight. As much as I enjoy the holidays I'll be glad to have them behind me this year. I did spend the past few days feeling sorry for myself and Ms Meyers is right, it does no good. I still don't know why I thought I could get away with eating all of those cookies in one sitting. Maybe the fact that I didn't will deter me from ever doing that again. This journey has had many ups and downs and I'm still learning, so hope is not lost. The cookies are water over the bridge now and I've still lost nearly 150 pounds and that makes me happy. I know I will get these last few pounds off and transition to maintenance before the winter is over. If nothing else the past 720 days have opened my eyes to some behaviors that I need to work on. I was worried about having goals for 2021 but consistency and discipline are going to be on the list now. I have to strike a balance and that is where I have struggled throughout this journey. Maintaining the weight loss is going to be just as hard as losing the weight has been so it's going to require the same level of commitment and discipline. That being said, these are going to be important goals ! I can't fall back into my old eating habits and I can't stop exercising. I allowed myself to slack off some this week because I wasn't feeling good for a couple days and because I've been busy with Christmas preparations but .. I do have a goal to get at least 1 workout in tomorrow, Friday and Sunday ! Saturday I will be home all day so the goal is 2 treadmill & 1 Total Gym that day. Monday's plan is getting up earlier and starting the day with a workout. I'm giving myself the week to reset my routine because I know it is not going to come easy.
Breakfast was a 2.1 ounce 160 calorie cherry cheese roll and a 5.3 ounce 80 calorie Light & Fit creme brulee yogurt. After that I was out for the day. My morning snack/lunch/afternoon snack was a Starbucks toasted white chocolate mocha latte (420 calories) and a cranberry orange scone (310 calories). Dinner was a veggie burger with roasted carrots and broccoli. I only ate half of the bun the burger was served on. I had a salted caramel martini with my dinner. My evening snack was 2 Alyssa's Oatmeal Bites. I happened to see them in Wegman's and was surprised to see there are only 90 calories in 2 cookies. They're high in fiber so they meet the criteria for a smart carb. With only 4 grams of protein they don't quite meet the criteria for a power fuel, which is 5 grams, but they're close enough to be an occasional snack. I bought the regular ones and the vegan ones. What's amazing is they have no added sugar and you'd never know it. They're pricey - $5 for 8 cookies - but that is 4 servings so each serving is $1.25. I pay more than that for a highly processed Nutrisystem snack. I really enjoyed them with my coffee and 2 was plenty. Total countable calories for the day are 1060 without the veggie burger and the martini, so I'm clearly over 1200. I got about 40 ounces of water in.
It's been suggested that counting calories is bad and that weighing myself regularly is bad but I tend to disagree with that assessment. Every time I go over 1200 calories I'm reminded of how easy it is for your weight to get out of control. Same goes for hopping on the scale. I will admit seeing the normal fluctuations from day to day or week to week is sometimes shocking. There are days the scale will say I gained 6 or 7 pounds overnight. We all know that is 100% impossible and typically tied to fluid retention or my sluggish digestive tract. I try not to let it bother me and I try not to be a daily weigher. It's also been suggested that I'm already too thin. I might be .. I have a fair amount of loose skin that may account for the pounds that stand between me and my goal weight. Regardless, 154 is the top end of the BMI range for my height so I feel like 150 is a reasonable weight goal. Getting to 145 might be considered unreasonable, so that is no longer a goal. I don't really have anything else to go on when it comes to my weight because I've been fat my whole life. What is normal ? I honestly don't know so I have no choice but to go with the BMI charts. I also don't trust what I see in the mirror because for years I didn't "see" how fat I really was. So am I really as "thin" as some would have me believe ? I don't know that either. So the journey continues for a little while longer.
As I mentioned I was out today. I picked up the gift cards mom needed along with a couple I needed, fought the Starbucks/Chick Fil A traffic and then took mom to have her hair done. You can't just go home after getting all dolled up so we went to Turning Stone casino for the last hurrah of 2020. We enjoyed a nice dinner at Upstate Tavern and some time at the slots. I only lost $30 so it was a good night. In reality I feel like I came out ahead since dinner was free and with my remaining casino credits I got 3 bottles of Inis body wash and a small tube of body lotion. That's a $60 value. Mom and I also pooled our $25 coupons for the casino shops to score a leggings set for me. An $80 set for $30 is much more reasonable so I don't begrudge them the $30 I lost on the slots ! The casino itself was surprisingly busy for a Wednesday but the restaurants were not busy at all. We had a fun day and on that note I'm taking myself off for a shower and bed.
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