Day 697: Success

 

  🖤 Get well soon Tommy ! #teamrivs #RageOn 🖤

“Success is what happens after 

you have survived all of 

your disappointments." 

Today is day 697 of Nutrisystem. I've had plenty of disappointments in life. Who hasn't ? Life isn't always going to be sunshine and roses. In the past I gave disappointment way too much power over my well being. The slightest bump in the road could trigger the "why me" and victim mentality and I would easily sink into despair. Too often I think I just used disappointment as an excuse to comfort myself with food instead of facing the curve balls life throws at you. It was easier to stick my head in the sand and ignore whatever it was, in hopes it would go away. It was easier to ignore my weight too, instead of finding a way to do something about it. It was always going to be next week or next month but next week never came and neither did next month. I just continued to eat and eat and eat. I would tell myself that after the ice cream or chips or candy or cookies were gone I wouldn't buy anymore .. but I always did. Not having those things in the house had the ability to trigger anxiety. Food had a great deal of power over me too ! Since I started Nutrisystem and my fitness program I've been blessed with many successes and each of them were powerful motivators. However, disappointment creeps in occasionally too. The number on the scale can make your day or ruin it and I've realized sometimes I give that too much power over me. I knew the last 10 pounds were going to be hard and I tell myself that over and over but the number on the scale can still crush me. So I don't weigh myself as frequently as I used to. The last thing I need now is to lose all motivation. When my ankle started hurting I ignored the pain and kept pushing on the treadmill, because I wanted that number on the scale to move .. quickly ! That stubbornness made the injury worse and I ended up off the treadmill for 4 days. It's not the first time in my life I ignored something and made it worse. The good news is the ankle feels better today and I was able to get back on the treadmill. So I survived yet another disappointment. Who knows .. a less intense workout schedule could make the scale move because my body isn't scrambling to find calories to replace what I'm burning.

There was no update on Tommy Rivs today. Chemo may be underway and it's going to be a difficult time as that process unfolds yet again. All we can do is continue to hope and pray. Rage on Tommy !

Breakfast was a 2.5 ounce 160 calorie package of buttermilk waffles with sugar free syrup and a 5.3 ounce 80 calorie Light & Fit strawberry cheesecake yogurt. Morning snack was a 120 calorie chocolate shake with peanut butter powder. Lunch was a 3.8 ounce 220 calorie pepperoni pizza melt and a chef salad. Afternoon snack was a 1.4 ounce 180 calorie Great Value Peanut Almond & Dark Chocolate Protein Bar. Dinner was an 8 ounce 240 calorie chicken alfredo with roasted veggies. Evening snack was a 2 ounce 140 calorie pumpkin cupcake. Total calories for the day are 1140 and I got 40 ounces of water in.

I opted not to even try getting a workout in this morning. I slept a little later instead. However, at lunch it was time to give my ankle a try. I completed a 23 walk with iFit trainer Hannah Eden in Portugal. I went with no incline but I used my 3.1 to 3.7 mph pace. I made it through the workout with no pain or discomfort. After work I completed another walk with Hannah, this time for 33 minutes with the same pace. Again, no pain or discomfort ! I'm cautiously optimistic that my injury is healed but I do have some soreness in my calf muscle a bit higher on the leg. I plan to stay away from incline for a while because no pain doesn't mean things are 100%. Tomorrow my new running shoes will be delivered and I need to acclimate to them before I even try incline again anyways. The bad thing about no incline is the calorie burn is so much lower. I'm also starting off with shorter workouts for a couple days. I had to keep telling myself I have to go slow or risk reinjuring myself. So today I logged 56 minutes, 3.2 miles and 260 calories. Those numbers are disappointing but I know it's only temporary and that helps a little. After dinner I spent 45 minutes on the Total Gym and that felt really good !

The first day back from vacation is always hectic and despite the work I did last Monday today was no exception. I didn't get as much done as I'd have liked and I was on the phone with a colleague working through a complicated issue until nearly 6 pm ! Hopefully tomorrow will be a bit more productive ! It was a gray rainy day today but temps made it up to the low 50's. I hear we may see some snow on Wednesday & Thursday so I'm glad to be working from home. Winter weather has been a source of anxiety for years so I'm glad I don't have to worry about that this winter ! Since my lunch workout was short I was able to make some jello and throw veggies in the oven to roast, so I'm all set for the week ! On that note it's about time for a shower and bed.