Day 696: Being There
🖤 Get well soon Tommy ! #teamrivs #RageOn 🖤
Today is day 696 of Nutrisystem. Today didn't turn out the way I planned and that's okay. Over the past 696 days I've worried some about being too self absorbed and too "me" oriented. Selfish, if you will. This after spending years always putting everyone else ahead of me. Once I started to focus on myself I had to find a way to balance my needs with the needs of others because I have a tendency to go to extremes. I knew I risked going from ignoring my needs to ignoring everyone else's - one extreme to another. I might be alone and "on my own" but I don't think I'd have made it through the past 6 years without the love and support of my family. So today was about helping my mom put a dent in her Christmas shopping. Traipsing through the stores is too much for her and with COVID out there it's not advisable anyway. So I packed up my computer and headed over there today. I was out much of the day Tuesday and Thursday. I was out much of the day Friday. I was out much of the day Saturday. There were things I wanted to do today but none of them were more important or even necessary. My mom has been there for me through some of the toughest times of my life and we've reached a point where she needs help too. Like me, she rarely asks for anything and even today she said I didn't need to come over. I went anyway. I'm no hero and I don't write this for praise. It's more an acknowledgement that I'm making progress with balance. I can put my needs/wants aside for someone else and not feel deprived. No more "poor me" .. no more "victim" mentality. This was no sacrifice. In the end we had a nice day and got a lot of her shopping done. I know she is relieved so that makes me happy.
There were no updates on Tommy Rivs today. Hopefully his medical team has taken measures to address his pain and eating issues since he is facing another round of chemo and will be miserable for a while. Rage on Tommy !
Breakfast was a 2.3 ounce 250 calorie cup of Powerful peanut butter & honey oatmeal. Cooked weight is more like 8 ounces. After that I was out for the day and I had my "lunch" around 5 pm, which was a 1.7 ounce 190 calorie spicy kung pao noodles. You add water so the cooked weight is more like 5 or 6 ounces. I also had a piece of my mom's chocolate pie. I was starving before bed so I warmed up the last of my roasted veggies along with an 8 ounce 230 calorie ravioli with meat sauce. Evening snack was a 1.6 ounce 130 calorie red velvet cupcake. Total calories for the day are 800 plus that piece of pie, so we'll go with 1200 and call it even ! I did not drink any water ... I'll be back to business on that tomorrow !
As I mentioned, I spent much of the day with my mom. I slept in until 10 am since I didn't get to sleep until about 4 am. I stopped at Wegman's for some fresh produce and to grab some milk for mom. I got back home around 6:30 and once I fed the cats I spent some time cleaning up my house then settled on the couch to watch reruns of The Incredible Dr. Pol. I had hoped to give the treadmill a try today but to be honest, it didn't break my heart to forego that for another day. I will give it a try tomorrow but I plan to go easy. My new running shoes will be here Tuesday so I will start breaking them in right away. There will be no incline for a couple weeks.
I had such a great vacation and boy was it busy ! I'm glad I spent time doing a little work on Monday because it will make tomorrow a much more pleasant day. Very often Sunday nights before the end of vacation were spent worrying about the amount of work that would need to be done. I don't have that worry this time around so I expect to sleep like a rock. On that note, it's about time for a shower and bed.
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