Day 694: Trial And Error
🖤 Get well soon Tommy ! #teamrivs #RageOn 🖤
Today is day 694 of Nutrisystem. This quote wasn't the vibe I was looking for today but sometimes inspiration finds you first. This quote is so true ! When I started Nutrisystem I was starting a program that tens of thousands of other people have used, some with success and some without. I was sold on the "eat the food and you'll lose the weight" slogan and while it is true, I found that you do need to spend some time customizing it to your own personal likes and goals. You can't just flip a switch and magically change years of poor eating habits overnight. It took a while to work vegetables into my diet on a daily basis but now I actually miss them if I am out and the meals are light on veggies. Drinking plenty of water was always a challenge for me and that also took some time to work into my routine. I still have days where I don't drink enough but those are few and far between. Exercise doesn't happen overnight either. I started this journey at 304 pounds and just getting up from the couch was a challenge ! I was over a month into Nutrisystem before I even tried to exercise and it was a struggle from day 1. It got easier over time as the weight started coming off but even now, nearly 2 years later, I still have days that I struggle with it. Some days you just want to sit on the couch and do nothing. I give in to that once in a while but I've been so focused on building consistency that I'm afraid to give in too often. Being injured now is very worrying to me because I'm afraid I won't go back to the treadmill and challenge myself enough. The past couple of days have been an exercise in patience for sure. I've experienced plenty of trial and error over the past 694 days too. I still learn new things every day and I still make changes here and there to make Nutrisystem work better for me. I veered off where I was going with my treadmill exercise and started focusing on endurance in an effort to challenge myself more. I know now that constant incline is a bad idea and when I gave it some thought I realized that none of the trainer led programs on iFit involve constant incline with the speeds I was using. Even the endurance series that inspired me had no incline. There are plenty of workouts with constant incline but they slow the pace down significantly. Obviously that is done for a reason ! So once I feel like I'm fully healed and have broken in my new shoes I plan to repeat the audio only endurance series. First I will finish out all of the workouts I've already scheduled (and am missing) so it'll be a couple weeks. I've been asked what my "secret" is many times and I always tell people there is no secret. If there was it would have been shared long ago and everyone would be thin ! Losing weight and getting fit is hard work, plain and simple, and you have to be ready, willing and able to put in that work. You have to commit to a complete, total and permanent lifestyle change. You can't just go on a diet, lose the weight and then go back to your old habits. You have to be willing to give up a lot but you also have to tell yourself how much you stand to gain by giving up those unhealthy habits. This is why I never preach to anyone who is struggling with their weight. I know from personal experience that you have to come to the realization on your own. No one can make the decision for you. You have to wake up one day and say "enough is enough" and I'm ready to do something about this. Only then will you have a chance at success. I'm almost 2 years in and I still struggle, so the changes do not happen instantly. I'm okay with that because I've committed to a permanent lifestyle change and the longer I work at it, the further away those old memories get. The new memories motivate me every day and keep me pushing forward.
Update on Tommy Rivs today revealed that his brother Jacob was able to visit him for the first time this year. He shared that Tommy is still in a great deal of pain from the skin ulcers he developed while he was comatose. He also found it sad he could not embrace his brother because Tommy is so vulnerable to infection and needs to stay healthy in order to withstand the next round of chemo. My heart breaks for the entire family. Rage on Tommy !
Breakfast was a 2.8 ounce 150 calorie package of pancakes with sugar free syrup. I was out for the day after that so my breakfast power fuel/morning snack/lunch/afternoon snack was a pepperoni stromboli and a side salad at Sbarro in Salmon Run Mall. I was home for a late dinner, which consisted of a 9 ounce 220 calorie beef & beans with roasted veggies. Evening snack was a 2.2 ounce 140 calorie lemon zest cake. Since I don't know my lunch calories we'll just go with 1200+ for the day.
As I mentioned, I was out after breakfast today for a day of shopping with my older sister. My brother in law had business up north so he dropped us off at Salmon Run Mall in Watertown. The mall was fairly busy but I wouldn't say it was "crowded". Several stores had lines of people waiting to get in but they were orderly and moved right along. We probably waited 10-15 minutes to get inside Bath & Body but there were no lines for the other stores we went in. The highlight of the day was browsing the bra's at Victoria's Secret, something I've never done. With the assistance of a store associate I found out my new size is 36B .. quite a drop from the 46D I used to be ! Some ladies (and their men) might be upset about that but I absolutely do not miss the discomfort of being that size. I didn't buy anything as I'll be receiving something as a Christmas gift. This trip was about proper sizing and seeing what styles I liked. I suspect I'm going to become addicted to pretty lingerie so look out when the after Christmas sales arrive ! Clothing never mattered much to me until now. I never looked in the mirror to "see how I looked". I was fat and I didn't need a mirror to know that. Call me vain but I look in the mirror a lot these days and I'm always surprised at what I see. My body is nothing to brag about but I feel good when I look in the mirror now. That is what is important. No matter your size you should feel good about the way you look. I did buy a couple of sweaters today, since I have none. They were on sale at Penney's for $10 ! I looked at a size small and doubted I could fit into it, so my sister said "take a small and a medium to the dressing room". Well, I needn't have worried - the small fit perfectly. I also bought a couple of t-shirt type tops with 3/4 length sleeves since everything I have is short sleeved. Those were on sale for $5 ! Last up was 2 pairs of jeans, size 10 for $16.99 ! When I tried them on I looked at the $44 tag price and said no way am I buying these. Then I saw the sale sign and it was a done deal. Since this was Christmas shopping I did actually buy some gifts as well !
My ankle is not painful today but there is some stiffness. Being pain free is an encouraging sign so I still plan to try walking without incline and at a slower speed on Sunday. I'm going to take it easy until my new running shoes arrive. At least I have something exciting to look forward to ! I had such a great day shopping with my sister, something we haven't done much over the years. She likes to tell people about my weight loss so I guess she's proud of me ! She shared the story with the ladies at Victoria's Secret and they were so sweet when they heard this was my first time in their store. Tomorrow is a casino day with mom and my sister & brother in law are coming too. Sunday I need to grocery shop, catch up on my house work, roast veggies and get some exercise in. Then it's back to the grind on Monday ! It's been a great vacation and I only have to work 3 weeks and then I get another week off ! Is it me or is Christmas coming way too fast ?!??!?!? On that note it's about time for a shower and bed.
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