Day 629: Be Better
🖤 Get well soon Tommy ! #teamrivs #RageOn 🖤It's day 629 of Nutrisystem. Took a while to find some inspiration today but this quote fit the bill. I am definitely finding that I am better than I ever, ever thought I could be. I signed up for Nutrisystem out of a little bit of desperation. Well, maybe a lot of desperation. I needed to lose over 150 pounds and I had no idea how to make that happen. Nothing I'd ever tried in the past had lasted long. I knew I couldn't do it on my own and I liked the fact that Nutrisystem gave you the ability to customize the foods you order. I would have qualified for surgical options but that was too extreme. I had to at least try to do it on my own. I knew portion control was one of my problems. I was used to eating as much as I wanted ! Suffice to say, calorie counts and portion sizes have been very eye opening. What I eat in an entire day now doesn't even come close to the calorie count of what I used to eat for dinner alone ! There are days that I miss being able to eat whatever I want. I'd love to sit down with a pint of Haagen Dazs or some chicken tenders drenched in ranch dressing. I'd love to sit here unwrapping a bag of Hershey Kisses one at a time. When I have those thoughts I think about how unhappy I was when I weighed over 300 pounds and ate all that stuff. I remember how I'd often feel physically ill after eating it. I was a catastrophe waiting to happen so I'm glad I finally woke up and took control of my life. If I'm honest, I didn't really think I'd get this far so I'm just as surprised as everyone else. Some days I look in the mirror more than once because it's still hard to believe what I see. I'm at the lowest weight of my adult life so what I see in that mirror is all new to me. I still struggle with body image because for years I didn't really "see" how fat I was. So I still question what I see. The fact that I can wear size 10 jeans (size 8 soon ?) and size small tops goes a long way towards believing what I see is real. When it comes to losing the weight and getting fit I really am better than I ever thought I could be.
Tommy Rivs was facing round 4 of chemo today so the coming days will be that slide into the abyss. He's getting top notch care so I'm sure they will use every medication at their disposal to make him as comfortable as possible. His dad says that with the removal of ECMO they were also able to remove some of the other lines in his body, such as a PICC, a catheter and a chest tube. Every line is a potential source of infection so it's good to have less of them. His wife posted a heart wrenching blog about the ups and downs of the past 70 days. Some days Tommy is present and some he is not. Some days he struggles to breathe. He told her he feels like he is drowning. I'd like to believe it's because he's getting better and maybe fighting the tracheostomy .. but I fear that is not the case. Despite the progress he's making he is still very, very ill. I can't even imagine how hard this is for a young mother with 3 little girls. Fortunately she has the support of 2 amazing families and the thousands of people around the world who revere Tommy Rivs the athlete. The odds are still against him but he's already beating them ... so who knows ! Rage on Tommy !
Breakfast was a 2.8 ounce package of homestyle pancakes with sugar free syrup and a 5.3 ounce 80 calorie Light & Fit lemon meringue yogurt. Morning snack was a 120 calorie chocolate shake with peanut butter powder. Lunch was a 4 ounce 230 calorie spinach & cheese pretzel melt with a chef salad. Afternoon snack was another delicious honeycrisp apple and a 1 ounce 110 calorie chunk of maple bacon cheddar cheese. I logged the whole snack as 200 calories. Dinner was a 5 ounce 210 calorie broccoli & cheese stuffed chicken breast with roasted veggies. Evening snack was a 1.8 ounce 140 calorie chocolate cupcake. Total calories for the day are 1130 and I got 80 ounces of water in.
It was slightly easier to get out of bed this morning even though I didn't go to sleep until after midnight. First workout of the day was a 30 minute walk in Boston, MA with iFit guide David Coviello. The programmed pace was 2.5 mph but after a short warmup I decided to do 9 minutes at 3 mph, then 9 at 3.2 and the last 9 at 3.4 mph. My lunchtime workout was another walk with David in Boston, this time for 19 minutes. After a very short warmup I set the pace at 3.4 mph for the remaining 18 minutes. After dinner I took a walk in Silves City, Portugal with iFit trainer Tommy Rivs. It was good to see and hear him - it's been too long. Most of his workouts are too advanced for me so I don't do them. This last workout was 35 minutes long and had a walking pace of 2.6 mph. After a short warmup I decided to repeat the pattern I did this morning, this time 11 minutes at 3 mph, then 11 at 3.2 and the final 11 at 3.4 mph. The 2nd half of the workout had some incline up to 8% but it was brief enough that I was able to maintain my pace. I am cautiously optimistic I will be able to complete that workout I've been avoiding .. the one where I plan to walk at 3.4 mph for 32 minutes straight. It's on my schedule for Friday so the intervals I did today are helping build both endurance and confidence ! I logged 84 minutes, 4.4 miles and 440 calories. After dinner I completed my usual Total Gym session. Fitbit says I did almost 17,000 steps.
Weather today was much nicer so by late morning I was able to move out to the front porch to work. I also had time during my lunch to get some laundry done so I don't have to worry about it this weekend. I need to try on my dress for my brother's wedding. It's a size 14 (I bought it in January) and I'm hoping it's not too big. Now there's a new one .. me worrying about something being too big .. LOL ! I have a few other things to buy before I'm ready for the wedding so I'll be out this weekend to do a little shopping and make sure I have everything I need. The wedding is a week from Friday ! Yikes !
On that note it's about time for a shower and bed.
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