Day 601: Being Human

 

                                                                                            🖤  Get well soon Tommy ! #teamrivs #RageOn 🖤

 " You don't have to be positive all the

 time. It's perfectly okay to feel sad,

 angry, annoyed, frustrated, scared or

 anxious. Having feelings doesn't make

 you a 'negative person'. It makes you

 human ." 

~Lori Deschene~

                        

It's Day 601 of Nutrisystem. It wasn't a positive day because my dental appointment didn't go well. I take disappointment hard - I always have. I get over it but it takes me some time to process and accept and then move on. How long that takes depends on the situation and the resolution. The first line of today's quote is one I need to remember. I try to be positive every day but sometimes it just isn't possible. My troubles might seem trivial to some but right now it's not trivial to me. I think I experienced every emotion possible today and I now have a couple weeks to "get over it" before my next appointment.

Today did bring a positive update from Tommy Riv's wife. He has a tracheotomy for the ventilator and can't speak, but he mouthed to her that he (a.) wants to eat and (b.) needs to write ! I can only imagine how good it feels for both of them to see each other and feel each other's touch ! I feel like being hungry is a good sign and the desire to write tells you the mental capacity is intact. Hopefully his children will be able to see their dad soon ! Reading today's update was a good reminder for me of what "real" problems are. Here you have a man fighting for his life and I'm wringing my hands over a tooth. Now there is perspective for you.

Breakfast was a 2.5 ounce 160 calorie package of buttermilk waffles with sugar free syrup and a 5.3 ounce 80 calorie Light & Fit lemon meringue yogurt. After that I was out for the day. My early lunch was a western omelet with a few home fries and 2 slices of whole wheat toast. Dinner was a buffalo chicken wrap with broccoli and a dill pickle. Hard to say what my calories were so we'll go with 1200+. I didn't get much water in.

There was no exercise today. I had the day off to go to the dentist and that didn't go well. The tooth cannot be saved so the dentist did not complete the root canal and prescribed a stronger antibiotic because he's worried about infection spreading into my sinuses. I go back on September 10th to see the oral surgeon. Depending on the cost I may opt for an implant to replace the tooth. I was pretty disappointed but not really surprised. Since it was early I picked up my mom for a day at the casino. We stopped at Flo's Diner first for a late breakfast/early lunch before continuing on to Turning Stone. We had dinner there at Emerald's and then headed to Point Place casino. A couple of Advil took care of the tooth pain once the novocaine wore off. I got home around 8 pm and was too tired to even consider getting any exercise. Spending the day with my mom kind of chased the sadness away but once I got home there was nothing between me and the whole spectrum of emotion associated with my dental issues. I'm too tired to break it all down right now so I might write more about it another day. Needless to say, I am sad and disappointed and not looking forward to more sessions in the dentist's chair. I also worry about more issues cropping up as they start disturbing the other teeth. What are the odds of getting an abscess on both sides of your mouth within weeks of each other ? The dentist doesn't feel they are related. I just wish I had taken better care of my teeth. I've had dental insurance for 35 years and many years I didn't use it. Lesson learned far too late.

So today was pretty much a bust. Ate more than I probably should have, didn't exercise and pretty much feel like a truck ran over me. The only good part of the day was spending it with my mom. On that note it's long past time for a shower, a couple of Tylenol and bed.