Day 419: Perfection
you'll never be perfect, you can accept
that mistakes are an important part
of your life's journey that contribute
to who you are."
~Charlene Martin Lillie~
I love this quote because I've embraced the fact that I'm not perfect and never will be. I almost said "I've always embraced the fact that I'm not perfect" but I had to change that, because I realized it wasn't true. For so many years I tried to be perfect and sometimes I thought I was. Turns out I wasn't. I failed at being perfect repeatedly. Since I thought I was perfect, it was pretty demoralizing when things didn't go my way. In my mind it was never my fault. The whole world was against poor me ! I always put on the happy face but I was dying inside and at some point I just stopped trying. I figured life was never going to get better and I was "stuck" with the path I had chosen, so why bother ? I honestly didn't care what I looked like and I comforted myself with food. When I suddenly found myself alone in 2014 life didn't magically get better, much to my surprise. It would seem all of my unhappiness was not because of another person and we were both flawed. I was still unhappy with myself and there was still a lot wrong in my life, so I continued using food to cope. As I've said on 100 occasions, it took the fire in 2017 to set me on the path that has led me to where I am today. It hasn't been an easy journey and it's far from over, but at some point the feeling that a black cloud hung over me started to dissipate. At some point I started to feel better about myself. At some point I saw hope for the future. I finally decided that the only way to change my life was to change myself. I still look back at the mistakes I made because they're good reminders but I don't dwell on them. My sights are set on what is yet to come and it's going to be amazing !
Breakfast was a 2.1 ounce 180 calorie cinnamon roll with coffee. Power fuel was a 5.3 ounce 80 calorie Light & Fit strawberry cheesecake yogurt. Morning snack was a 155 calorie chocolate shake with peanut butter powder. Lunch was a 4 ounce 220 calorie spinach & cheese pretzel melt with roasted veggies. Afternoon snack was a 5.3 ounce 80 calorie Light & Fit key lime yogurt and 3 cups of popcorn (105 calories). Dinner was a 7.5 ounce 220 calorie chicken fettuccine alfredo served over riced cauliflower. I also had some roasted veggies. Evening snack was a 1.6 ounce 130 calorie red velvet cupcake. Total calories for the day are 1170 and I got 64 ounces of water in.
Today was supposed to be an office day but I forgot to set the alarm and didn't wake up until 7:30. Oops ! I don't think I've overslept in 10 years .. I was just mortified ! So it ended up being an unintentional work at home day. I didn't get a workout in during lunch as I had to go into downtown Syracuse for a work related appointment. After work I had no excuse so I completed a 33 minute hike in Alaska with Ben Seale. It was an intervals workout with 2 minutes at 3.2 mph and 4 minute recoveries at about 2.7 mph. There was a lot of incline and I actually had a hard time keeping the pace at some points ! I logged 1.5 miles, 33 minutes and 241 calories. After dinner I spent about a half hour on the Total Gym.
Tomorrow will definitely be a work at home day as my area has a Blizzard warning now and we could see 3-4 feet of snow before it's over late Friday. I'm hoping the worst of the snow stays north of me as it has much of this winter but I'm not taking any chances. It's supposed to be raining by midnight but that's expected to turn to snow by 6 am so we're going to end up with a messy mix on the roads for the morning commute ! If I wasn't able to work from home I'd have scheduled vacation days. I used to do that every winter.
Only 22 days until Spring ! On that note it's time for a shower and bed.
Breakfast was a 2.1 ounce 180 calorie cinnamon roll with coffee. Power fuel was a 5.3 ounce 80 calorie Light & Fit strawberry cheesecake yogurt. Morning snack was a 155 calorie chocolate shake with peanut butter powder. Lunch was a 4 ounce 220 calorie spinach & cheese pretzel melt with roasted veggies. Afternoon snack was a 5.3 ounce 80 calorie Light & Fit key lime yogurt and 3 cups of popcorn (105 calories). Dinner was a 7.5 ounce 220 calorie chicken fettuccine alfredo served over riced cauliflower. I also had some roasted veggies. Evening snack was a 1.6 ounce 130 calorie red velvet cupcake. Total calories for the day are 1170 and I got 64 ounces of water in.
Today was supposed to be an office day but I forgot to set the alarm and didn't wake up until 7:30. Oops ! I don't think I've overslept in 10 years .. I was just mortified ! So it ended up being an unintentional work at home day. I didn't get a workout in during lunch as I had to go into downtown Syracuse for a work related appointment. After work I had no excuse so I completed a 33 minute hike in Alaska with Ben Seale. It was an intervals workout with 2 minutes at 3.2 mph and 4 minute recoveries at about 2.7 mph. There was a lot of incline and I actually had a hard time keeping the pace at some points ! I logged 1.5 miles, 33 minutes and 241 calories. After dinner I spent about a half hour on the Total Gym.
Tomorrow will definitely be a work at home day as my area has a Blizzard warning now and we could see 3-4 feet of snow before it's over late Friday. I'm hoping the worst of the snow stays north of me as it has much of this winter but I'm not taking any chances. It's supposed to be raining by midnight but that's expected to turn to snow by 6 am so we're going to end up with a messy mix on the roads for the morning commute ! If I wasn't able to work from home I'd have scheduled vacation days. I used to do that every winter.
Only 22 days until Spring ! On that note it's time for a shower and bed.
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