Day 267: Perfection
"It's okay to fail. Consistent doesn't mean perfect. The master has failed more times than the beginner has even tried."
I like this quote because I have a tendency to expect perfection from myself. The problem with that is I'm not perfect and never will be, so I'm never happy with anything I accomplish. Historically, every time I failed (or felt like a failure) I just let it drive me into the ground and eventually I stopped trying. I think it's common to set higher standards for yourself than you expect from others, but some of us take it to extremes. All my life I've let everyone else slide but there was never an acceptable excuse when it came to my own own actions. So that's a little bit of learning for today. It's not an easy perception to change. It's one of those things you have to work at over time, so it won't be an overnight fix.
Breakfast was a 2.1 ounce 180 calorie cinnamon roll with french vanilla coffee. Second cup was triple chocolate. My breakfast power fuel was 3/4 cup of plain yogurt (90 calories). Morning snack was a 155 calorie chocolate shake with peanut butter powder. Lunch was a 4 ounce 220 calorie chicken faijita melt with roasted garlic salsa and a chef salad. Dressing added 30 calories. I also had the usual raw carrots. Afternoon snack was 2.5 cups of Skinny Pop popcorn (100 calories) and a 5.3 ounce 80 calorie Light & Fit strawberry cheesecake yogurt. Dinner was a 7.5 ounce 230 calorie chicken marsala that I served over riced broccoli. Evening snack was a 3.4 ounce 100 calorie frozen fudge bar. This wasn't really the snack I wanted but everything I have is 120 or more calories and I didn't want to go over 1200 (even if only by 5). Calories for the day are 1185. I only got 32 ounces of water in today - I really slacked off on that !
During lunch today I got in another Grand Canyon hike with my favorite trainer John Peel. This one had 1 minute intervals alternating between 2.7 and 3 mph but it also had plenty of steep inclines thrown in. I'm looking forward to trying another one in the series tomorrow and .. shocker .. I'm sorry I avoided these shorter workouts for so long ! Now I'm beginning to think part of my motivation issue is the fact that some nights I'm a little tired and the thought of spending nearly 45 minutes on the treadmill is too much. Going forward I'm going to at least consider trying a shorter workout if I'm tired. I did not do a second workout tonight for no other reason than it's Friday and I just didn't feel like it.
After dinner I took a little walk down memory lane and realized that my life wasn't always so bad. I went through the fireproof box I keep important documents and valuables in. I went through it because it's been stored in a cubby that was not cleaned or painted as part of the house renovations, so I'm going to scrub it myself tomorrow. It's a painted surface so it's no big deal. Anyhow, I found a forgotten jewelry set that consists of a tanzanite necklace, ring and earrings with tiny diamond accents. It's probably set in sterling silver or possibly white gold. It's really beautiful and I'm sure the ring and necklace never fit me, so I never wore it and forgot all about it. They fit now so I'm looking forward to wearing it ! I also found a set of gold and diamond earrings with a matching necklace, which was likely also too small back when I received it. These aren't the crown jewels, they're more like the $99 sets you used to see the mall jewelry stores offering around the holidays. I also came across 2 other more expensive necklaces and some costume jewelry. I also found $500 in savings bonds that date back to 2003, 2004 and 2005. They're worth about $364 right now. That was a nice little surprise. I had a lot more of them but over the years I had to cash them in during hard times. I also found I have a few of the Sacagawea gold dollar coins that came out in 2000. They're pretty much only worth a dollar .. lol ! I'm sure my dad gave them to me so they're priceless to me. Smoke from the fire had infiltrated the box so I had to wash everything and get rid of some of the boxes the jewelry was in. I guess I need to put a jewelry box on my Christmas list ! I had the deed to my house in that box at one time but I took it out when I refinanced the mortgage and then I never put it back, so I need to do that ! My point in sharing all this is to acknowledge that all of the years I spent with Alex weren't bad. Things just got worse over time and the mementos I have are from the happy times. The box reminded me of a scene from the movie "Chitty Chitty Bang Bang", where the children offer their box of "treasure" to their father so he can buy the car. Although the items inside were worthless, they were special to the children. My box of treasure isn't worth much either but most every item in it had a special memory attached to it.
I don't know about you, but I'm glad it's the weekend ! I'm thinking about getting my hair cut tomorrow since I need to visit the grocery store for a fresh supply of veggies. We'll see how ambitious I am when I get up ! Today was another beautiful sunny day ! It started off cool again but by late morning it had warmed up enough to let the cats out on the porch. I heard a winter storm of historic proportions is forecast for Montana .. soon enough that'll be us !
Time for a shower and bed .. looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow !
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