Day 6: Absorbing the Shock

Time does heal all wounds but after 34 years it will take some time to get past what has happened with my job. I think it will be easier once I know if I still have a job, but even if I do still have a job it’s not going to last until I am ready to retire so change is inevitable. My hope is that the change in career happens on my timeline. That is all I can ask for.

In the meantime, life goes on. I was able to sleep last night so I feel better physically. The plumbers were here relatively early and have finished all of their work, so I have some peace of mind. Hopefully I will not have to deal with frozen pipes again. Since I’m home and the snow hasn’t made an appearance I was also able to run out and pick up my Walmart order. So now I have my desk chair to assemble. I also have the mats for underneath the treadmill and chair. These were the last couple of items I needed for my house so I’m absolutely done buying stuff for the house. There is nothing else I need or really even want.

Breakfast this morning was a 150 calorie blueberry muffin and some french vanilla coffee. The muffin was about 1/3 of the size of one you’d get at Dunkin, so it was tiny. I’ve also had my morning shake and lunch was a 200 calorie fudge graham bar. I’m supposed to include veggies with lunch and dinner but my appetite is not what it used to be. I’m going to try and get some in at dinner. I guess the gut punch of a major career change is just what you need to kill your appetite when you embark on a diet ! I think dinner tonight is going to be turkey mac & cheese. Not exactly something I’d choose but I’ll give it a fair shot. I’ll probably cook up some carrots too since all of my veggies so far have been green.

The wind is pretty fierce this afternoon so it’s trying to blow something in from the west. Looking at the radar it seems like all of the possible snow is heading southeast of me, but that can change in a heartbeat when you talk about lake effect snow so I’ll keep watching.

EVENING UPDATE: dinner tonight was a 270 calorie mac & cheese with turkey sausage. Taste was good (I added some romano cheese !) but the sausage nuggets had a texture I didn’t particularly like. Regardless, I ate it and it wasn’t awful. I also had some carrots so I got my veggies in for the day. I’m not doing good on water today, I’ll be lucky to get 32 ounces in by bedtime. It’s been a stressful week and with the loss of Tigger today I couldn’t care less about the water. I will try again tomorrow.

Although I’ve seen it 100 times I’m watching Christmas Vacation on tv. It’s a good distraction. The snow has arrived so I’m glad I didn’t attempt to rush Tigger to the emergency vet. She wouldn’t have made it and with it being dark the visibility wouldn’t have been good and who knows what shape the roads are in.

I don’t know if I will go to work tomorrow. I may take another vacation day to process this latest event. I’ll see how I feel in the morning. Although I was tempted again tonight to stray from Nutrisystem I did not and I’m proud of that. I may indulge in a glass of wine before bed, which isn’t part of the first week program, but I’m not going to hold that against myself. Calorie wise, a glass of wine is a far cry from a plate full of breaded chicken tenders and a bucket of ranch dressing. I never did have my afternoon snack so I may have that too.

Tomorrow is Day 7 and Friday morning will be my first weigh in. I’m really hoping to see an amazing number on the scale !