Day 22: Don't Worry About Failure

3 more pounds gone ! I am very, very happy !! I’ve lost 18 pounds since December 29th.

Day 22. Being on Nutrisystem has become my new normal. Breakfast this morning was another 2.8 ounce 160 calorie package of pancakes. I made a sandwich of them with peanut butter again. The peanut butter adds about 95 calories. Coffee today was French vanilla. Morning snack was the vanilla shake, which incidentally is only 120 calories. I guess it was a vanilla kind of day ! Lunch today was a 4 ounce 230 calorie four cheese melt. It was good and again you have to be careful not to overheat these because it’s like eating lava if you do ! The roof of my mouth is just about healed from the scalding I gave it earlier this week. I had more raw carrots with the melt. My afternoon snack was a 1 ounce 140 calorie bag of “nutrichocolates”. They were ok but I’d rather satisfy my sweet tooth with 1 ounce of better chocolate. These chocolates have 7 grams of saturated fat in them so they’re on par with most. I guess the fact they have 7 grams of protein is what makes them different. I’m going to customize my next order to leave these out along with the non-frozen pizzas. Dinner tonight was a 4.8 ounce 250 calorie margherita pizza. It was pretty good even though I’m not a big fan of tomatoes. I may swap this item in my next order too.

I was excited to hear my next shipment from Nutrisystem is scheduled to be delivered tomorrow but I came home tonight to find the frozen portion was already here ! The shelf stable stuff will arrive tomorrow. I only had food until Monday so this is great timing. You do have the option to move up your next order so I’ll keep that in mind going forward. The frozen items are a repeat of what I received last month so I expect the shelf stable items will be the same as well.

I’m happy to report I beat the worst of the snow this morning. It wasn’t doing anything in Mexico but I ran into snow between Central Square and Syracuse. Regardless of that 81 was in great shape. It started snowing pretty good in downtown not long after I arrived at work at 7 so it pays to be early ! We had brief blasts of snow all day but by the time I came home the skies had cleared and the roads were awesome. I also noticed it is no longer dark when I leave work ! So happy to have that part of winter behind me !

Today’s message is about failure. The perfectionist in me worries about that constantly and I’ve let fear of failure run my life for too long. Over the years I had other opportunities with AT&T but I let them go to stay with what was familiar and comfortable and safe. I had so much going on in my personal life that I couldn’t put any extra effort into my professional life. I stayed in my comfort zone instead of having confidence in my abilities and reaching for something new. With my office closing I feel like I’m being given another chance and I can’t let the fear of failure hold me back this time. So I’m actively looking for other opportunities in the company and applying for anything that interests me. I may not get an interview but no one will ever be able to say I didn’t try !