Day 17: I Have A Dream

A fitting title considering tomorrow we honor Dr. Martin Luther King. Sad that he did not live to see his dream achieved.

My dream is to finally shed the weight I’ve carried for so many years. Today was a challenge because I was hungry all day ! Breakfast today was a 1.3 ounce 130 calorie packet of apple cinnamon oatmeal prepared with skim milk. I’m pretty sure the all carbohydrate breakfast set the tone for hunger all day. I had 2 cups of coffee with it.

Late this morning I went outside and cleared the snow away from just outside the garage door and the side door. Temps were single digits all day so my hands were frozen after being out there maybe 10 minutes, even with gloves on. We had light snow all day so our storm total is probably a little over a foot. Tonight it’s windy and brutally cold ... 3 degrees right now ! This is going to be the coldest night we’ve had this winter so we’ll see if my new pipes can take it ! I’ll be praying !

My morning snack was a shake made with both the chocolate and vanilla mix. I like that better than vanilla alone, but it wasn’t as good as chocolate alone. Lunch was a 3.8 ounce 220 calorie pepperoni pizza melt. It was very good ! I had some broccoli with it. Boring ! My afternoon snack was a toasted slice of whole wheat bread (80 calories) with about a tablespoon of peanut butter (90 calories). That was my PowerFuel and a Smart Carb and it was delicious. I also had some raw carrots later on because I was hungry again before dinnertime. Dinner was a 4.7 ounce 290 calorie meatloaf sandwich with some barbecue sauce. The sauce adds 35 calories. I had cooked carrots with it. I’m at 1023 calories for the day. I haven’t done good with the water this weekend .. it’s just been too darn cold to think about drinking water, even at room temperature.

I pretty much relaxed the whole weekend. The last 2 weeks have been pretty stressful and although I know it will all work out I do still have moments where I worry about my future. Considering how cold it is right now I’m a little envious of my colleagues who are going to be making the trek to Florida ! Life is not going to be the same and although I’m excited about doing something new I’m also going to miss a lot of the people. But my family and my life is here and I’m not willing to give that up. It seems like every time my life is going good something bad happens. In my dark moments I wonder what I did to deserve it. Then I ask myself what I did to deserve all of the BLESSINGS in my life. You have to be thankful for what you’ve had and what you have .... and then have faith that what you need will come too. So that’s where I am today. I just keep telling myself it will all work out.

The biggest blessing in my life today is the gent that plows my driveway. Hearing that blade scrape the pavement was the sweetest sound on this snowy day ! This is the 3rd winter he has plowed for me and I am so grateful. He always calls me his best customer and says I’m one of the few he can count on to pay up ! I’ll take that as a compliment .. lol !