A Sad Day

I was going to update my Day 6 note but this sweet girl deserves her own note. I write these for myself, to document my life for me, so don’t feel that you have to “like” or comment.

At 5:57 pm this feisty girl passed away peacefully in my arms. Back in November 2017 I was told she had cancer and probably wouldn't live very long, but she hung in there for over a year. She had lost some weight recently and this morning she wouldn't eat so I knew things had changed. At dinner time I found her trying to crawl into one of the cat beds and I could see she was in distress. A trip to the emergency vet wasn't going to help and it's far away so I just held her. She snuggled into my chest and we sat quietly until the end. I think she was happy to be in my arms, feeling the warmth of my touch and hearing the beat of my breaking heart. Had I gone to work today I would not have been here to comfort her, because I would have stopped at Walmart on the way home. Things do happen for a reason. Rest in peace my sweet Tigger. We had over 17 years together and I know you're at peace now with your dear sister Pooh and all of the others who passed over the Rainbow Bridge before you. The dogs Blackjack, Keno, Hailey, Taylor and Atlas. The cats Sparkles, Pooh, Lucky and Princess. So now it's just me, Abby and Minnie against the world.

Tigger and Pooh were a gift from my late husband and arrived on Halloween 2001. They were born July 26th of that year. Pooh passed away before the fire. She was a Russian blue mix and just the sweetest girl you could ever want. Tigger was also very sweet and both of them were happiest in my lap or cuddling with each other. Tigger was lost for a long time after Pooh left us. There has been so much loss in my life over the past few years. I honestly don’t know what keeps me going. This week has been especially hard with my job news on Monday, the broken pipes yesterday and now this. I can understand a bit better why some people choose to depart this life rather than face what is in front of them. I’ve had those thoughts in the past but it’s not the answer and it’s not something I would do.

I sit here and look around this house and ironically enough I believe I have Tigger to thank for it. I’m pretty sure she started the fire that led to the extensive remodel of my home and the replacement of pretty much everything I own. If not for that I honestly don’t know where I would be today. My life and home were in bad shape back then.

So now I’m left with just Abby and Minnie. Minnie is 9 and Abby is 10, so we have a few more years together. Once they are gone I don’t know if I’ll get any more animals. I’ve said goodbye to 5 dogs and 5 cats and will eventually say goodbye to 2 more. Each one took a little bit of my heart with them so there is not much left. I think it’s enough.

When the time comes there will be many happy tails waiting for me at the Rainbow Bridge.