Day 322: Where I Am Now



"This version of me wasn't built overnight. This is experience and pain. This is insecurities and abuse. This is depression and a climb out of rock bottom. I had to go through a lot of shit to get to where I am now."




This wasn't the tone I was looking for today but when I saw this quote I grabbed it. I'm not going to rehash all that has transpired over the years. It's all in the past and things are better now. I did go through a lot to get where I am today and I feel like I deserve the blessings that have come my way in the past couple of years. My life changed 5 years ago but it didn't really start to get better until the fire. If nothing else, maybe I can give some hope to anyone who is in the same place I was. Hope that one day it will get better.

 Breakfast was a 2.1 ounce 160 calorie cherry cheese roll with maple pecan coffee. Second cup on the go was macadamia cookies. Power fuel was a 5.3 ounce 80 calorie Light & Fit caramel apple pie yogurt. Morning snack was a 155 calorie vanilla shake with peanut butter powder. Lunch was a 4 ounce 220 calorie barbecue chicken melt with raw carrots. Afternoon snack was a 5.3 ounce 80 calorie Light & Fit key lime pie yogurt and 2.5 cups of Skinny Pop popcorn (100 calories). This left 405 calories for dinner and an evening snack. I had dinner out and I probably went over my calories. Mom and I shared a bacon cheeseburger and fries. I needed something sweet when I got home so I had a 1.9 ounce 120 calorie tiramisu. Total calories are 1200+ and I got 64 ounces of water in.

 After dinner mom and I did a little gambling at Point Place but ended up leaving there with the same amount of money I started with AND my free blanket, so I was happy about that. The blanket is a nice super soft throw and I can never have enough of them. I use them all winter ! It was nice to see my older sister and my niece but I didn't get to see my brother in law. We'll catch up at Thanksgiving ! I got home just before 10 pm but I'm glad tomorrow is a work at home day ! I'm also glad I didn't get my car washed today (the line was long at Delta Sonic) because it rained all the way home ! I did not get a workout in as I had to participate in an online focus group for an app that is in development. It's a paid thing I signed up for before I made plans to be out tonight. I'm done with that and it's late so I'm headed for a shower and bed. Today was a super productive day at work so I'm hoping tomorrow will not be the usual crazy "day before vacation" type of day !

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