Day 787: You Can
🖤 Get well soon Tommy ! #teamrivs #RageOn 🖤Today is day 787 of Nutrisystem. I'm continuing my "do your best" theme and this quote fits into that. No matter what the week, day, hour or minute throws at me all I can do is my best. Nothing more, nothing less. So if at the end of the day I can say "yes" when I ask myself if I did my best, that is all that matters. The days of expecting so much more from myself are over. I spent so many years unhappy with myself and once life started to get better I continued putting the same unrealistic expectations on myself. So much was wrong in my life and I didn't even know where to start ... so I didn't. I wallowed in misery instead of rolling up my sleeves and doing my best to change my situation. I have always had trouble with working on one thing at a time. If a bunch of things are a problem I want to tackle them all at once and resolve them all at once. Well, history tells me that doesn't work - at least not for me ! If I couldn't resolve them all at once I did nothing. So deciding to lose the weight, get fit and pay off my credit card debt all at the same time was a big ask. I've been asked "why now" so many times and it's a question I've asked myself too. I've never really been able to answer it. It was just time. Maybe enough of the issues in my life had been resolved and I finally had a manageable number of issues to address. Maybe I had run out of excuses not to address them. Maybe I was just sick and tired of hating myself. Before I started this journey I don't think I would ever have said I did my best at the end of the day. If you're not even trying it's not possible. It all boils down to the fact that I stopped trying many years ago when life got so out of control. I'm sure there will be days that I don't do my best and the answer to that question will be no, but those are the days I need to examine a little more closely. Am I comparing doing your best to being perfect again ? That's the catch 22 ! There will be days that doing my best doesn't mean I achieved all I set out to. Take yesterday and today, for example. I didn't exercise either day. I got home at 7:30 today. I got home at 9:30 last night. I could have got on the treadmill or Total Gym .. or both. Does that mean I didn't do my best ? Not necessarily. I did the best I could for that day. I'm allowed to be tired. I'm allowed to have a weekend off. I have 5 days, 15 treadmill workouts and 5 Total Gym workouts in front of me. I work hard Monday through Friday just so I can enjoy my weekends. I'm not often out both days so I'm not worried about missing a few workouts. I've been working on making exercise an enjoyable part of the day, so I'm not going to force myself to exercise for the sake of exercise. I had to do that at the beginning of this journey and I hated exercise. I used every excuse I could find to avoid it. I got past that and started to enjoy it, so that's where I want to stay. When I go to bed tonight the answer to "did you do your best today ?" will be yes. If I had sat here on the couch all weekend without exercising the answer would be no .. but I would still take the time to examine why that happened before passing judgement on myself. I'm never going to be perfect and that is something to remember.
Today was an unexpected day out, so I was eating off the Nutrisystem plan. I started the day with buttermilk waffles with sugar free syrup and a Light & Fit creme brulee yogurt, then I was out. While I was out I had lasagna & chef salad for dinner along with a slice of italian bread. I had a couple glasses of wine, some irish soda bread and half of a peanut donut. When I came home I had half of an oatmeal cookie with a cup of coffee. I also had some popcorn and a few cheese curbs. Calories for the day are unknown so we'll go with 1200+. I drank no water so I'll be making up for that in the week ahead !
After a fun weekend I feel recharged and ready for the week ahead ! My goal for tomorrow is to be a little more productive at work and to kill it on the treadmill ! I am giving my shoulder another week of rest but I will be working the lower body on the Total Gym. On that note it's time for a shower and bed.
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